JUST IN THE BRAIN.

The dusk has arrived, and he dropped me at home,

He gave me a peck and went back alone. 

His ring on my hand and mine on his hand,

The promise we gave together is unplanned.

He looked good and wealthy, with a huge home and name,

But what if his deeds and ethos are only a game?

With fear and anxiety, suffocation and pain,

I told myself it’s all just in my brain. 

It is so hard to seethe and heavy to breathe,

I went to my bed, getting ready to weep. 

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The alarm has rung and so is my phone,

To drive to my job and enter their zone.

Reach, work, leave is only what they say.

But, salary, bonus, hike are all what I pray. 

Craving to follow my passion is a dare, 

But, buying my own house is everything I care.

With fear and anxiety, suffocation and pain,

I told myself it’s all just in my brain. 

It is so hard to seethe and heavy to breathe,

I returned back home, getting ready to weep.

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I am in a wrong place and I know it,

Impossible to shout out so I chose to quit. 

Surviving a wife and a mother is only a sham,

Because living the other way around is really what I am. 

I left my woman for the person I can’t love,

But parents’ pride and respect were all of the above.

With fear and anxiety, suffocation and pain,

I told myself it’s all just in my brain. 

It is so hard to seethe and heavy to breathe,

I went to the roof, getting ready to weep.

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Roll, camera, and action is my dream, 

Until she left, breaking the team. 

Applause and appreciations became a myth,

Disregard and failure are what I surround myself with. 

I know I could do it if I try,

Panic and loss is the reason I don’t rely. 

With fear and anxiety, suffocation and pain,

I told myself it’s all just in my brain. 

It is so hard to seethe and heavy to breathe,

I sat all alone, getting ready to weep.

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All of a sudden, there beeped the phone,

Tears were hidden, and sorrows were thrown. 

Everyone together smiled at each other, 

Laughed at jokes like nothing to bother. 

Just one video call and not the entire day, 

What else to fear when friends are a call away?

With joy and belief, suffocation and pain,

They told themselves they can fight again. 

It became easy to seethe and lighter to breathe,

They are all together, getting ready to weep.